Lament II: Coal In A Furnace

השם,

Poison of the spirit… The belief in future.

I lived a life on the premise of the fulfillment of dreams:

20 years to be free of what ailed me;

3 years to be free of what then ailed me;

and finally 8 months to be oriented towards you.

But of those 23 years and 8 months, how much have I lived?

I have consumed my own life under the veil of virtue!

Of the time I have lived, none of it was ever promised or certain, but I lived as if it was.

I abused your gifts.

This is the structure of our society… We think in quarterly reports, two-year career plans, four-year degrees, 35-year investment portfolios.

The genius of modern life is that eternal systems rely on contigent humans consuming themselves: coal in a furnace.

Is there such a thing more sick than this?